Turning 33 has been a unique and meaningful experience for me. The number 33 looks like twins, similar to the Gemini sign. This year has been full of highs and lows, successes and failures, happiness and sadness. Here are the different phases of my 33rd year:
Quarter 1 of My 33: The Summer Phase
I started my 33rd year feeling like a flower in full bloom. I was shining, super positive, and my life felt truly blessed. During this time, I unexpectedly met someone who made me believe in love again. It might sound cliche, but as a typical Gemini, I usually avoid settling down (well, you know haha). This love story not only made me believe in love again but also helped me understand myself better. I learned the difference between being obsessed with someone and truly loving someone. This quarter brought me the most happiness I’ve ever felt in my love life.
Professionally, I had a great time too. I was busy with big projects that taught me a lot about managing timelines, developing better strategies, and handling projects. My hard work paid off, and I got promoted to a senior level where I now manage a team — a goal I had always aimed for in my career.
Family life was good. My parents and family were healthy, and we were all blessed both financially and emotionally.
In terms of friendships, I had a great time as well. I enjoyed quality moments with old friends and made new friends without even planning it. I learned a lot and felt grateful for the positive energy my friends brought into my life.
In conclusion, this quarter was filled with happiness in every part of my life, truly making it the summer of my 33rd year. People often say that the first month of the year feels the longest, but for me, it flew by because I enjoyed every single day.
Quarter 2 of My 33: The Fall Phase
Fall is cooler than summer. Leaves change colors in fall, and so did every part of my life.
My family went through a tough time. For the first time in my life, I faced a child’s worst fear. My mom had health issues that required her to rest completely, and I was the last to know. Suddenly, I had to take on a new role as the family leader, something I had never done before. As the youngest, I was always the follower. Now, every decision was in my hands, and I had to be very careful. This experience gave me a new appreciation for what my dad went through as the family leader. This change affected every part of my life and marked the start of my fall season at 33.
In my love life, things cooled down after the intense love of summer. I had to focus more on my family, which made this love life part less intense. Nothing was wrong between us, but I learned the importance of communicating my feelings, wants, and thoughts. Keeping everything to myself made me less authentic. I realized that a lasting relationship requires both sides to be open and show their true selves.
Professionally, I had to make a tough decision. Just as I was reaching the top of my career, I resigned from my job to focus on my mom’s recovery. I wanted to be by her side 24/7 and help her get better quickly. I also had to take on some of my mom’s responsibilities to support my dad. This decision was entirely mine, and I had to let go of all my hard work. Suddenly, I was jobless in my 30s.
Friendships took a backseat during this time. I disappeared from my usual social circles. Normally, I would be there for my friends, but during this fall phase, I had to step away and focus on my family and myself.
Quarter 3 of My 33: The Winter Phase
Winter was a challenging phase, especially for my love life, which felt like the coldest part of my year.
My mom started to get better, recovering much faster than expected. I was by her side 24/7, managing her diet, making sure she took her medicine and attended therapy sessions. Her quick recovery made me proud and glad that I could support her as the temporary leader of our family.
Professionally, I got a new job. While taking care of my parents, I received several job offers. I was lucky to choose the job I wanted during this tough time. Starting this new position was crucial as I needed to prove myself to the management and confirm that I made the right choice among the offers.
In my love life, winter truly hit hard. The person I was in love with during the summer decided not to continue to build the love story. It was heartbreaking, but I understood that it was partly because I hadn’t communicated my feelings and thoughts clearly. This regret made me realize I should have done better in this part of my life.
This affected me deeply. I became more withdrawn and lost the motivation to do anything. I started isolating myself at home for weeks, avoiding interactions with anyone, and turning down all invitations from friends. Even though I’m usually an extrovert, I found some comfort in being alone and reflecting on my life. During this time, I was diagnosed with depression, which was a shock to me. But it was a reality I had to face.
Quarter 4 of My 33: The Spring Phase
I began to recover from the darkness of winter and started my journey into spring.
On the professional side, I successfully passed the critical first three months of my new job, adapting faster than I expected. My new job demands my full attention, and I’m grateful to be busy with work. Everything is going well, and I feel confident about my future in this role. I have a good manager and a supportive work environment, which makes a big difference.
My parents are doing much better, and we are starting to enjoy life again. I’ve also started having meaningful conversations with my family, which I am very thankful for.
In terms of love, I began to open my heart again, going on a few casual dates. But I realized I wasn’t ready. I questioned my motives — was I dating because I wanted to or because I feared being lonely? I understood that I was seeking a replacement for my empty heart rather than genuinely connecting with someone. This realization made me decide to pause dating until I’m truly ready.
By the end of my 33rd year, I had an important realization. I am blessed with friends who always support me and are there for me in an instant. The friendships I have are invaluable and have shaped who I am today. I am deeply thankful for everyone who made my 33rd year filled with happiness, learning, and growth. I won’t live my 33rd year again, but I will always cherish it. Now, I’m ready to face my 34th year. Happy birthday to me, Reza. I am proud of you!
